Maybe

4/20/2004
Maybe the reason I can’t stop loving you-
Is because like they say,
When one door closes on yesterday,
Another one opens on a new day.
And underneath it all-
I would rather hang onto
All my broken hopes and dreams.
Maybe I never want to stop loving you-
So that I’ll never get hurt again-
Maybe it’s safer to hold onto
What I know & what we had
Than to dare to hope & dream again-
The thought of someone new-
does cross my mind-
But underneath it all-
I tell myself,
I still love you,
As always, body, mind and soul.
I have to admit
You were the love of my life,
My everything.
And I tell my self
Nothing will ever be the same-
You get one shot at the real thing
And our thing was just never meant to be.
But knowing all that, as I do,
Still does not set me free-
And I can’t stop loving you-
And maybe it’s because
I simply don’t want to open tomorrows’ door.
And I don’t ever want to hurt like this again.
With this awful loss, forever more.