Facing a Fear of Commitment in Home Decorating

I never realized I had a fear of commitment until recently when I decided to redecorate my living room. Faced with so many choices and so many styles, I found myself unable to make a decision. Weekend after weekend, I would set out into the world to find just the perfect couch.

This one is too low to the ground.
This one is too hard to sit on.
This one is a horid color I cant imagine in any living room.

You get the idea.

I watched HGTV and spent countless dollars for decorating books filled with homes and flats decorated with money far beyond my own means. This seemed to fill me with more anxiety about my upcoming decision.

As I shared my weekend ventures which I had consequently named my “get fit while shopping tours”, I heard my indecision. I came to realize its not simply an indecision due to enjoying so many colors and styles, its actually avoiding taking a risk!

Each week I sat in my living room dissatisfied and uncomfortable. How long would this go on? When would I allow msyelf to commit to my own comfort and pleasure? I have always thought of my home as a sanctuary, a place to unwind and find peace after a hurried day.

Finally, I realized something had to be done.
It was time to call my sister in. Surely she could help me make the decision. I was struggling with decorating one room and she had beautifully decorated her home.

Sit.
Feel.
Test.
Discuss.

Bingo! I committed.

I made a decison. I bought the couch.

The indecision, I came to find was over the moving out of the old and the delivery of the new couch. Though I didn’t know how that process was going to work, I was ready to take a risk and allow things to unfold. The answer would become clear. The help I needed moving the couch would be there when I needed it.

There is a God!

Everything came together. As I type this, I sit in the support and comfort of my new modern arm chair covered in the most beautiful floral motif as warm as Autumn. The colors sooth my eyes, the comfort is finally realized. My apartment finally “feels” like a home.

Answers often come in the form of a journey. I learned how to let go, take a risk, to let my feelings guide me and to enjoy the reward of risks taken.

What have you been putting off to the determent of your own comfort and pleasure? Tomorrow is a new day and another opportunity. Be the star of your own life.

Make a commitment.