Loss

You talk with a smile, set me down;
But the words go by, they don’t make a sound;
So I sit staring, numb, blinded by a veil;
While my mind wonders, down long forgotten trails;
Happy memories, places, with only you and me;
Laughter, cheers, merry jeers, that shine light upon this dark sea;
That is churning, swelling, deep inside me;
Crushing, crashing, belligerent waves;
Smashing me back, to these sorrowful days;
Full of pain and tears, will this stay for years;
Will I ever stop fighting, off these fears;
That your face will blur, right out of sight;
And the way your hands used to feel, just won’t be right;
Will there be an end to these lonely nights;
Can I pass off this sad smile, that feels so out of place;
Even as I crave, to fall from grace;
I have to, I must, pull myself out of this place;
For others need me, to lend my strength…